J

Saturday, May 31, 2008 @ 1:18 AM

*Don't probe anything about who's this post for. Keep your wild guesses to yourself. I don't & wouldn't want to ans any of it. So thanks.

I don't knw how to express how I feel for you at the very point of time, I really don't knw.
But now, I wished I knew, everything & totally.
I was held back by some unexplanable force, that made me stopped.
I did not want anyone to be hurt in this, that's why I made that decision because I'd rather I was the one.
I thought I could get your attention, but it seems like I had failed completely & thoroughly.
And it seems like you doesn't care abt it anymore too now.
You've got yours, I've got none.
I knew I deserved it.
I've blown my own happiness away.
Blame it on no one but myself, I swear.
And now, I could just stare blankly at it, helplessly & aimlessly.
It started off sweet, ended off in screams.
Others take me as a flirt, because they don't knw anything abt me at all. I don't mind, I don't blame them.
But, you too? I bet so. Because I made you felt so, I knw.
But now, I don't wna be named as a flirt anymore.
I REALLY WISH YOU COULD SEE THIS.
But so? I knew it'd not be bck like before.
But anyway, I didn't expect anything to turn bck.
But I'd just like to apologise, I'm really sorry for all.
This is the biggest mistake I'd made in my life so far, I'm sure.