Why am I even letting you to have that impact on me......
#nowplaying - Someone like You
Tuesday, December 27, 2011 @ 1:43 PM
I heard that you're settled down That you found a girl and you're married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy? Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you too Don't forget me, I begged I remember you said, Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead
Nothing compares no worries or cares Regrets and mistakes, they are memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
PS/ I'm gna kill the next person that ask me who I'm talking abt in my previous post. IT'S A SHOW!!!!!! :@ But MAYBE, I can relate it in real life too someday.
Monday, December 26, 2011 @ 10:36 PM
It's funny how some people can turn into someone who they said they will never be. How is this possible? I really don't get it.
Maybe they didn't change at all, this is them right from the start.
I'm not angry, just disappointed and find it ridiculously wrong.
A misplaced trust?
Merry X'mas~ ☃
@ 12:35 AM
Dear space, I'm back to you after two months or so, again. For the good and the bad, mostly bad. :(
This year, unlike the other years, is a really bad one. Not really in terms of mentally (thou it constitute part of it too), but more of physically. I had my wart removed (LIKE FINALLY), I fell after so long(!!!!), I kind of fractured my right lil' small toe and it's still swollen now, I banged my face against the wall and the wound is STILL ON MY FACE UGHHHH and the list goes on.....
It took me ard....4 mths(?) to thoroughly remove the wart and YES, IT'S GONE FOR GOOD NOW! Hopefully though because the doctor said that there's still chances of it coming back no no pls.... It's really tiring because I've to consistently be back at NUH for my follow up every 4-6 weeks and the timing is always freaking early and weird, like 1028AM? And I've to apply the med on my stupid toe twice a day! Not forgetting to cover it with a plaster whenever I'm out to prevent it from being infected. YOU TELL ME TROUBLESOME A NOT?? But still, I did it willingly lah because I really wanted it to heal so badly.... :( Couldn't run or walk normally at the beginning at all.. Don't wna mention how I fell on my knee but hiya, damn stupid one can. I only landed on my left knee and it explains why the wound is so jia lat. There's still scar on my knee now bitch!! HATE IT SO MUCH. How I got the bruise and swell on my lil toe was when I was playing with my maid. Played a prank on her and I tried to run away furiously after that and yada, my feet just bang straight to the wall. I really really believe in karma since then on hahahahahaha. And, the bruise on my face! Was feeling supa giddy when I was about to use the toilet at home and there my face goes, straight to the wall and I really got no idea why and how did it happened. Dad was so worried and kept asking am I beaten up by someone because the bruise on my face is actually quite big O_O And oh!! I tried rubbing my bruise with an egg and the egg really turned black, amazing! (not the whole egg lah of course)
SO YUP!! This year is ending and I'm kind of glad abt it? It's like a year with all the misfortunate things happening to me lah...really. Can't get any more worse jia lat kua zhang already s e r i o u s l y. 5 days to 2012.... I really really wish everything will get better, for myself and for everyone around me! And actually I realized, some of these stupid things can be avoided IF I'm more careful and observant but sadly I'm not and will never be. I choose to be blind most of the time and although it's sometimes irritating that I can't look far, I ren ming la. This is me, this is Jessie. The one who forever refuses to wear specs/contacts but I guess, I got no choice but to start loving it now. I know I can't be forever relying on others to look out for me cause no one promises to be there for us at the end of the day.