Wednesday, May 30, 2012 @ 11:04 AM
When you feel that your care for others was never appreciated, but you just can't stop.
When you no longer know where you stand in their heart, but you can't question.
Bottle it up.
On a happier note, I'M GNA BE PUTTING ON BRACES REAL SOON!! :D Heheh, have been wanting to put it since years back...but always can't be bothered by it till now. Guess by end of June it'll be done! :) Wanting 8th of June to arrive so badly...though it's only 2 weeks holidays this time but at least I might be able to relax myself and not feeling so tensed up like now for all the unknown reasons.
I wna go back to the life where I need not account to anyone for my actions, where I can go out with anyone I like, drink as and when I like, where my mood would not be affected by other people's actions, where some people's ignorant and nonchalent (that's what I think they're doing) wouldn't bother me at all. They might not feel it that way, I might be the one thinking too much, but this is what I feel that's conveyed to me through their actions.
Drinking keeps me so relax, as least it stopped me from thinking about all the problems at that moment. Yadah yadah I know others always say girls shouldn't drink so often and much, but Idgaf. At least I'm still able to get home safely always after drinking alone,
always,
alone. Didn't become any burden or let anyone anyhow touch me that's the main thing I guess? Hah. I wna meet Xue Li, someone who's always willing to do all these crazeh things with me! :) But when it's my holidays, her holidays will be over.... FROWNS. :(
It's their life, let it go. I need to make a decision soon...