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Tuesday, November 16, 2010 @ 7:40 PM

Saw a classmate's tweet abt boyf being more impt than friend. Some rly are I admit, like boyf is there everything (Heamen doesn't treat me as his everything & I don't too, and that's the right way of course) but duh, some rly aren't. It's RLY RLY hard to balance btw friendships and relationships, I mean srsly fking hard can? Like one party bound to be unhappy in the end no matter what? Darling feels the same way too. I always try to think to the very depth when I make a decision, like I can think for a day or even longer, thinking abt the consequences if I go with this decision or that. OK IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE THEN DON'T READ ANYMORE JUST GO AWAY.. SO PEK CEK LAH WHEN PPLE CAN SAY I ALWAYS WITH MY BOYF. DON'T KNW THE SITUATION THEN STFU LAH. Ok no pple say to me yet, or they just didn't but only among themselves IDC also lah. Just say to my face if you dare and not in other places like whatever y'know I know. I do treasure every of my friendships as well as my r/s with Bie. And I rly hope friends out thr can understand my difficulties? Like pls spare a thought for me, it's not easy to manage /maintain a 2yrs plus r/s y'know. (ok I sound so being wrongly accused hahaha) Pls let me feel that friends are thr to support, not to flame. You knw I'll be thr when you need me too :> Friends that knw me long enough shld knw what type of person am I & I THANK YOU FOR THAT :) But some, no matter knwing for how long, still like knwing for a wk. No trust /understanding. (IN GENERAL NO PIN POINTING DON'T FEEL SCARE)
I knw some can rly manage well, kudos for that but I'm trying real hard, ever since from the start.
Hope my girls will understand... But if you don't, don't act like nothing happen at all when you're boiling shit inside. I RLY HATE HYPOCRITES A LOT A LOT.. :(

JUST RANTING THOUGH! :)